MARUISM

I’ve posted this once in my old Friendster blog. This is my son’s reply to the letter that i gave him when he attended their school’s Search-In/Retreat Program held a year ago. I sent the letter careof his spiritual adviser from La Salle, Brother Rey.

K E V I N

Natatawa ako habang binabasa ang composition nya. Pero impernes, na touch din ako. Eto yung content ng letter - unedited.

Dear Mama,

Life is unfair. And it is. But life wouldn’t be meaningful if ain’t unfair. I don’t blame you. It’s just that because of unfortunate circumstances. I’m just too immature at that time not to understand.

My selfishness got over the better of me. But now I’m different. I’ve gone mature. I believe I’ve gone mature. Search-ins just the spark needed. You’re the main factor of me being mature. You taught me to be obedient.Taught me to be fun. Taught me to be self-reliant. Taught me to be independent. Taught me to be me.

When the time comes that we will undergo a transitional phase called “death”, I’ll be left alone with no one to cling to when you’re gone. But I’m not afraid. You trained me. Trained me to the ideal son you want me to be. My mom’s the best thing and the only valuable thing to me.

I found out that support is really not big deal. Because when I grow up, no one will be there for support. I’m all alone. But I’m independent. I’m Kevin Khalil B. Reyes. And I’m gonna make you proud.

Love,

Kebin

Sabi nga ni Bro. Rey sa akin, naiyak daw ng todo ang bagets ko when he read my letter. Hindi ko na ipapakita dito ang mga isinulat ko dun sa letter. Dyahi ako eh. Pero mahaba yun at kung ano man ang laman nun, eh siempre galing yun sa kaibuturan ng puso ng isang nagmamahal na ina para sa panganay nyang anak. As in pinagpuyatan ko talaga i-compose yun.

He’s grown-up na talaga. Mamang-mama na ang anakis ko. Parang kelan lang eh nasa kakulitan sya na edad. Laging nagpapakarga, nagpapasubo ng pagkain, at nagtuturo ng kung anu-anong bibilhin sa tindahan.

Ngayon eh sobrang laki na nya kesa akin. Kayang-kaya na akong kargahin. At ayaw na ako samahan mamili kasi ikinahihiya na ako - ang lakas ko raw kasi mambarat sa presyo. Lols. Hilig ko raw tumawad. Bakit daw hindi ko na lang deretso bilhin ang isang item. Hays…mga lalaki nga naman.